i usually thrift most of my clothes/ get them on sale, but there's been an inflow of shitty moments, i just had to give into retail therapy to make me feel better.

contributions to stress:

1. how much i suck at conveying my thoughts. (i finally called ramille, and it didn't go down the way i planned, i seemed like a fool )

2. failed my macro exam. fuck me, everyone else got annihilated as well. 

3. jessica & her bf came down and we did all the things that they didn't like. (went exploring in our on campus cave, took them through the forest to see tree 9, and ate at saturns (a vegitarian place downtown)

jessica & her bf like real meat. i totally forgot and took them to the best restaurant in town... which was vegetarian. so they ordered a fake bacon & meat burger. needless to say, it doesn't taste like meat, and they didn't like it.  and i also took them to the coolest parts on campus. i mean, who else can say that their campus has a CAVE?? and a crazy tree that if you climb to the top, you can see the entire town??

although we did things they didn't like, we all had fun, and it was good seeing her.  one of the funniest moments last night was when i was eating my nacho fries and saying that it tasted meaty, and how i swear there HAD to be meat in it, and that her burger tasted smokey (that flavor you get when you BBQ it over a grill) , she claimed "THAT IS NOT SMOKEY, AND THAT IS NOT MEAT" and it was the funniest thing ever.  maybe it was a you-had-to-be-there moment. hahah ... 

anyways. i finally bought that ugmonk lowercase tshirt i was oogling over a while back. i can't wait until i get it in the mail! i'm also wanting the  johnny cupcakes new hoodie... i love the simple design, and when they released this last year, the color was gray on black which doesn't hit home for me as much as this  white on navy version.  i only have one pullover hoodie at the moment. i love wearing those, they come in handy when i seriously have nothing to wear, or when i don't feel like dressing up. 

um. 

i'm supposed to hang out with ramille tomorrow, awkwardness ensues, i'm so sure of it.  

although everything i said probably came out horribly, i'm glad i finally said it all. i wish it was more eloquent, but what can you do.  what's done is done. i was so afraid of losing him as a friend, i didn't realize that he never considered me as a friend, period. i asked him straightout what he would classify me as and he said "a close acquaintence".  these things take time, i know, but it's so hard when i feel so strongly about him. friends are people you genuinely care about, and it doesn't matter how many times you've hung out, or how often you talk, (although those factors does influence it)  it's how close  you feel towards that person.  

why can't i ever be so eloquent, calm and composed when i talk to him? i need to take him off that pedestal  i put him on and just realize that he's an a amazing person, but not so much more than any other person could possibly be.  

Today I went to try and buy train tickets. And I went to the British Library exhibition 'Points of View - Capturing the 19th Century in Photographs'. I'm so fed up of not doing make up regularly anymore though that I made myself up pretty.

( And some other things... )

I almost never post here, but now I'll fix that and dump my outfit pictures here. Some of there are from the beginning of summer, I think, so I'll try my best to put them in an oldest->newer order. Then again I take pictures of my outfits veeery rarely, so you don't see much.
( Click heeeere )

hello
i'm new on this lj ^^
i'm french and model
and i'm fan of 80's spank, popples and carbears

for my first pic i have decide to put my last shooting pic
jem and the hologram ^^
www.myspace.com/nyunafrayou


hope you like it ^^

tomorrow, jessica m. who is of my really good friends from back home is coming to santa cruz to visit! she's bringing her bf which is a bit odd... but it doesn't matter cause i haven't seen her since the first half of summer! it'd be nice to finally meet her boyfriend anyways. i do feel a bit sad that she's only staying for a day, she's leaving saturday morning/ early afternoon.. : (

i'm planning on taking her to the porter caves, tree 9 (if they aren't tired), eat at saturns, and order nite owl cookies, & maybe cafe brazil on saturday morning. i dunno though. i vaugely remember how to get to porter caves, so i need someone to show me again, especially since we're going at night. D:

blahhhh i need to clean up my room before she comes, and FUCK I HAVE A MACRO ECON MIDTERM TOMORROW! AHHHHH seriously, fuck me. i'm also sick, so it's been hard keep my energy up for studying. fuck fuck fuck. i didn't pass my last midterm, so i HAVE to redeem myself on this one. there's so much shit to memorize, i feel so helpless. this seriously sucks cause i started studying for this on monday, i should have not gone out during halloween weekend. pooop.

i'm praying that i'll miraculously remember all the formulas & facts that i'll at least PASS this time. more studying ensues. : (

I didn't go to Halloween party this year because of flu epidemic. I decided to post here my Halloween coordinations anyway. Maybe I'll wear some of these in the future, so it would be nice to get your opinions. But please don't be harsh:)

( 3 costumes, 15 pics )

HI THERE~

New member, since... 10 minutes ago xD
My name is Kami (NO JOKE), and I bring good variety of outfits <3

( 17 outfits here~ )</div>

Went to Tokyo Decadance in Paris for Halloween. I would be the tallest blondest one in this picture.

(which I did not take any part in the editing of, I'm sorry about that but I don't have the original)

( Power stance )

even though we don't talk much, when we do talk, it has substance.

i feel closer to alex y. i updated him on my boy issue, and he tried his best to help me through it logically. i'm very scatterbrained, and talking to me is pretty hard if you can't follow my thoughts, and i'm just so grateful that he was just so patient with me about the whole thing, and gave me really good advice.

and after guiding me through my issue, i got to know alex y. a bit better as we talked about other things. i feel really honored to be considered a "good friend" of his, and what history he decided to share with me.

it's good to know that i have someone like that to talk to at santa cruz.

oh my gosh.

halloween was chill, but pretty crazy.

i kissed a guy because i just really wanted to, and i didn't think to much of it because i thought he was gay. later that night, i find out that just because he was wearing a bright red pleather nurses outfit doesn't mean that he's gay. my bad.

it felt fucking awkward as jasmine's party because the party population was pretty small and nobody was dancing. I CAME TO DANCE.

jessica might come down to santa cruz for the weekend with her boyfriennd. it'll be nice seeing her, since i haven't seen her since the first half of summer.

i'm doing poorly in my stats & macro econ class. fuck me. i have no idea how i'm supposed to pull this off, i'm getting really worried. i tried reading ch. 10 in econ last night, and it just wasn't making sense to me. fuck fuck fuck.

how am i gonna do this? i need to get my shit together.

I usually try (keyword: TRY!) to be crazy and unique to try to keep up with some of you. (I know. Contradicting right?) Plus, I don't have a great body to boot so I making things more simple for myself.

( One simple outfit )

My (blurry ) daily vanity.
It's always amuse me to see how people in the street react to a little bit of colour in outfit.

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